Posted on February 23, 2015 at 4:41 pm

“I Thought You Were on the Wagon.” — “Yeah, But the Wheels Fell Off.” :-)

Well I have learned a lot about damned addiction that I, unfortunately, had to learn the hard way. After being clean for so long (390 days) I fucked-up. I allowed a close friend of mine to use in my house a few times, I didn’t see him use, I made him use in another room. After a few times of that he would use in the same room as I was. I did not really bother me. Or so I thought. One mistake that all addicts can make is over-confidence. Over-confidence is the on thing I was not fully prepared for. I have heard that some addicts got over confident and slipped off the wagon. However I believed that this only happened to those addicts who where clean for a period of 6 to 9 months. But I was wrong. After spending some time with an excellent counselor, Larry L., he & I came to the conclusion that over-confidence was my downfall.

My Downfall:

One night in December of 2014 my friend was over and he used, then he offered me some, and for some dumb reason out of the blue I accepted. It litterally got me using again for a week and a half. Enough so that when I stopped I had withdrawal sickness. It also got me in trouble with probation, and got me sanctioned, hell almost in jail.

The Lesson

The lesson here for myself that I would like to share with any other addicts: Don’t get over confident. Too much confidence in your sobriety can get you into more trouble than alot of things.

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